My Perfectly Good Reason

I'm really starting to hate the sound of my voice, i just listened to a few plan b vids and now i don't even wanna do them anymore... my voice needs to get deeper i think has puberty hit my voice yet? it hit everything else... eh well.

so why is it that everyday I'm constantly reminded of why i like being single? i guess normally i tend to blame it on everyone else but this time around its different.... YES its still everyone else's fault but there's a new person who's getting the finger point.... yeah yeah its me.

-Friends: a lot of my friends have relationships where there are times that things get so bad i always sit and think to myself yeesh glad that isn't me. because they cry, they get angry and they break up to make up that's all they do. Now i know not all relationships are like that, but somehow I'm the one who gets exposed to it.

-Friends part II: there are those cases where you have the occasional friend who has to talk shit or not like you...me...you the other person in the relationship and that always leads to drama i know friends are friends but i sometimes figure a real friend (if they cared about you) will let you be happy and let things be...if you say you got it then you got.... i mean they should have your back but i mean really sometimes they just do it out of jealousy or plain dislike for the "other half". Now i know not all friends are like that, but somehow I'm the one who gets exposed to it.

-Parents: please, my mom still thinks that every race should stick to his or her own I'm not allowed to bring girls home who aren't black...i brought lindsey home once...she's half black that didn't do too bad.... but what if i ever thought about bring jo home? hahaha yeah right I'd be super screwed....either way parents always have an issue, my mom is aware that i date all other ethnicity's she'd just rather i didn't.... Now i know not all parents are like that, (thankfully) but somehow I'm the one who gets exposed to it.

-Guys: aren't they always a hand full of drama? with the exception of jo and greg all gay guys seem the same to me... drama drama drama and so nosey i cant deal with all that nonsense really so i just keep my distance look around from the sidelines where its safe. Now i know not all gay guys are like that, ....... now i know not all gay guys are like that..... now i know a lot of gay guys are like that BUT NOT ALL...(most of em) but somehow I'm the one who gets exposed to it.

-Guys part II: my male friends do nothing but judge whoever I'm with or whoever their with its always a competition or somethin about sex.... who knows who's telling the truth about what they do and how they feel?! i join in because i feel like i have to or even sometimes i just let them in on a little secret...its not that big of a deal. Now I'm not saying all my guy friends are like that.... wait yeah they are.

-Girls: my female friends are actually always supportive about who i date.... they just remind me that there are actually nice girls out there who are worth the time... they're all so sweet
(thought i was gonna bad mouth girls huh?)

-Girls part II: (of course i am) for some reason i fall for the ones who stress me out, how does that happen? for some reason i fall for the ones who take advantage of me, how does that happen? for some reason i fall for the ones who somehow make me think they're crazy, how does that happen?

-Me: OH yeah i know why (well for some) i just like to be difficult, i like to tease to please myself and a lot of girls don't get that about me, nor do they get my natural flirtatious behavior with men and women but I'm a flirt not a cheater.... roods = different from other guys. but cant explain that to them every word i say is an insult and I'm ok with that...take me as i am or don't take me at all, I'm never that harsh I'm just honest and i do have my limitations... but i don't have to explain that to anyone over and over again.... sometimes i don't think i have to explain that at all but eh well...
and with that said (all of it) its just easier to stay single. I'm free to flirt, free to judge, free to say what i want without thinking of holding back, i can stay away from drama dudes and gossiping guys angry parents, other friends drama and i can just have my own opinion on everything its nice.... its peaceful its me... and this is how I'm gonna stay =)



oh roods you're too much to handle.